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sinkin2in2
Tuesday, January 18, 2022
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And gently push
my brain into
thefreakspace ; that haunted house in your head that you won't
go near or even look at
I
want to multiply
my skills -- to
PUSH experience, to give it life and to watch it spin. To wind
up the toy, it takes many many weeks and months of work. most times,,,
With any creation, talent is not what divides . The main
divider is raw effort expenditure. , , , giving all of yourself to the
goal... This
really narrows the pool of people which exist in a
craft at a certain level. and at that level, a second filter
would be taste ,- one's ability to discern value internally and
externally, passive judgement within meditation- to be
thoughtful on clouds of thought , sensation and experience which pass
you by-- deciding What gets stored, what gets thrown away; need a sharp
eye
to pan this massive river. Culture soup we pan for
gold- that gold is the inspiration, vision, direction,
and mindset to execute original creation
I
am left slightly confused after videopix.
Confusion in what is the right way to market oneself-
How to gain traction or to tell others about a thing
you've made. I think for the computer game, once it is
ready for eyes on it in some capacity- I will try to take a
more forceful approach . .
I will shout at people walking by, im standing on a big rock or a
electric box
: 'LISTEN SHIT HEAD YOURE GOING TO PLAY MY PC GAME . . PLAY
IT . . . NO COST JUST EXPERIENCE WHAT I WORKED ON , . ENJOY YOURSELF
AND TELL A FRIEND'
The chemistry lab smell
of designer drug. my kid brain on phenethylamines-
imprint memory
I
have felt inspired the past several weeks from the
current project which I am quite excited about- It
reminds me why I love to animate and
why I love to
make video. To make things which are a perfect mixture
of retarded and remarkable . To showcase something
spectacular which does not exist yet- which cannont
exist unless you MAKE IT. That is in the top 3 reasons
why i make anything at all. I dont even like calling
art what it is. I dont like the label or the baggage
that comes with being 'an artist' . even since
elementary school I did not wear my creative energy on
my sleeve. I kept it hidden, I thought that was way
sicker. To be a secret agent of creation.
It gives you more power
this way too, over yourself
as an individual. Do not
have to create self fulfilling prophecies - no shoes to fill and no box to squeeze
in. Maybe we don't step back enough to think about
what boxes we have squeezed into as we've navigated
our lives thus far- Humans are liquid machine - god
has given locomotion and sensation not for static
fulfillment of expectation. Affecting and exciting
others is the byproduct of
your own self-affectation. The awe you feel inside is what is first- The momentum of
inspiration is what creates the work
- The observer is you; a great big
audience of 1. Another's affectation is external to you, and filtered by the
conduct of culture- subjectivity,- words of praise,
verbal expression of appreciation. This is dirt
compared to one's internal satisfaction. A feeling
that grows as you chip away on your mission and reach
whatever heights you dream to.
I have a really
vivid sequence of action
in my head for the last 2 weeks that I have been
replaying in my head and scribbling on papers -
preparation before I dive in to animate it in my 3d
viewport. I really want to nail everything in the
shot- I have it planned as the first main shot with
the characters and setting- So I have to make it ROCK.
Or else... !
The past year for me has been a rigging exploration ,
techniques , best
ppractices, portability, comfort
(for the animator,,, me) , the ins and outs of
workflows- I learned a lot and built upon my
knowledge. After it all I gotta say,,,,, I like
animatiing more than I like rigging.,,, but I still
like rigging.... But I really really HATE dealing with
porting skeletons between software. Its frustrating
and tiresome - because I animate my deform bones like
a mad man sometimes and that is not a good thing when
you have to bring those bones elsewhere....
I've
gotten Some Really cool e-mails in my mailbox the
past month. I'm sorry I haven;t been quick to respond
to anything- time moves around me at
lightspeed sometimes - But
it lights up my mood , no
ands ifs or buts. to chat or glance
at a friendly human being reaching out/responding. I
do sometimes need to be in my bubble of creation
though, which is why I find it hard to be "public" in
any capacity when I am shifted into a gear which
requires a bit of isolation and total dissolve. float
on the ocean ,, isleep on the water
I picked up
software this month - Im going to see how I like Clip Studio Paint . I
am specific with how I work on my raster animation- I like things
Barebones- dont need video or sound- no bloat- needs to be bullet
proof. I will try to
use and learn this month, so that i can share
my thoughts and experiences
Now
I've Got to get
back to my project ,so , Peace for now - Jack
https://youtu.be/or7HhvFCHLc
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